When I started this site I wanted it to be
fun and smiles and some
thought provoking messages
about friendship, love, inspiration
and so forth.
But, I know many people deal
with depression or perhaps
some have disabled children,
perhaps some kind of sadness
has touched their lives in some way.
So, I decided to share
a little bit of my life
through my poetry.
I'm not getting on a soapbox
and I don't try and tell
people that all is okay, when it's not.
just knowing someone else has
been there, helps us
to get through the rough stuff
life dishes out to us.
This is a part of my site
that is about the more
serious side of life.
And it's a section no one
really needs to visit.
I guess my point here is,
I got through all this,
there is a light at the end of the tunnel,
as the saying goes.
I just didn't want to mix in
the more deeper, sad things,
with all the other poetry pages,
that I have tried to keep
happy, fun, upbeat and positive.
So, I added this index page.
This section is about Bipolar Disorder,
or manic depression, as some call it.
Also about raising handicapped children,
who by the way, both my sons,
Aaron and Nathan
have turned out to be wonderful,
kind and loving, young men
and a blessing, to me.
And my wonderful daughter, Rachel,
is also Bipolar,
but we caught it early in her life.
She amazes me at what a great mother
she has become. I have two beautiful
grandchildren, Scott and Corinna.
And Rachel is married to an awesome young man.
Now, this is what my son-in-law said
to me one day, actually he has mentioned this
a few times....
He said, "Mom, Rachel and I don't ever
want you to worry about Aaron and Nathan,
when the time comes
and 'Mom' is not here anymore,
they will always have a home with us."
I look at my three
(4 actually now that Rachel is married)
children and think to myself,
I must have done something right,
even with my crazy, nutty disorder.
Okay, so I'll brag a little about my kids....
Not one of them has ever, smoked,
used drugs or alcohol
Never been involved,
in any way, with the Law.
Heck, they have never even used swear words.
I am blessed!
But yes, I am divorced after 33 years of marriage.
Some pages will be about getting through divorce.
There can be a lot of bitterness after that too, but
I think I'm finally past the bitterness.
And, I will add other pages about trials many
of us have to go through.
I probably won't add a lot here because I don't
believe in living in the past, but maybe someone
will feel a little hope,
after reading some of these things.
I want to emphasize,
these pages about mania and depression
were what I went through from the age
seventeen to about fourty-three....
If you read other pages
listed under many different categories
on the rest of my site,
you will see
that I have tried to keep everything
fun and upbeat with positive thoughts.
The rest of my site
is a reflection of who I am today.
True, I may still have some highs
and lows from being bipolar,
but nowhere near what I had
Scroll down below
for the pages I've written about,
"Deeper Thoughts" from my life.....